It’s been a long time na pala. Honestly, I’m loosing energy blogging. For the past weeks, my life has been in a series of Ups and DOWNs. I know this is but a natural phenomenon but it somehow makes me “torete”. I feel emotions I do not used to feel. For a week or two, I was in bliss just to know someone out here cares for me. the feeling of being in love always sends a beautiful music to my ears, paints amazing sceneries amids the polluted Manila. You know, I all had these and that that I would define as the factors that would complete my life. I had this dreams that I hope “ito na yun”, na sana tumagal But certainly, it would not be as easy as I wish to. Accompanying such decision to be committed are responsibilities, insecurities, and fears and similar scary things. Giving myself brings a lot of sacrifices and phobias. First, I never am sure that what I took part into was really a serious mutual decision or was I just the one serious but the other was not and would not be? It’s the scariest part, when you know that all I experienced was part of my temporary files in my life. I hope it’s not but it seems to behave that way. I know it’s my fault to eat what I promised, what I said. I said that i won’t take it seriously, but then I was trapped to fall into deep seriousnees in this relationship. Ang hirap kumawala. It’s hard to forget and live anew. I can’t start my day of like any ordinary day without thinking, “anu nba ang lagay”. And it’s honestly tormenting me. no one likes this feeling I am feeling right now. I’m never sure of the days ahead if thses would favor me or not. I never am sure if he’s serious or not. I’m getting serious these days, maybe as part of becoming mature(yuck) individual. Naiinis talaga ako, I can’t get my composure. I have reservations and I cannot fully make my day happy because of this. I’m trying to forget but the hope that It would gonna be okay prevents me from doing so. Also ,I’ve been torn thses days. Some of my friends told me NOT TO GIVE UP, but others say I’m becoming irrational, of seeing things as okay even if it’s not, that I must stop this delusion because it won’t do me any good. I followed the former, but it did not give me any sense of peace and relief. Don’t really know what I must do. I badly need to move on coz my acads has been sacrificed but i don’t have the gutt and motivation to do. It’s absolutely making me worthless but then being practical and forgetting him won’t do me any good either. It’s like giving up happiness for the sake of this and that. it’s like putting myself in a shallow grave. Up to know, I haven’t made any decisions. All I still do and do and do for the longest time is maintain the status quo and believe all what he says. Bit that is all I can do. As he said, I have to trust him, and I’m doing it. I just hope I’m right. I think I need a break, I need to reflect. But I have been reflecting but I came to no solutions at all. Sometimes, I wish I didn’t permit myself to get deeply involved but again as he said, serendipity and destiny. I hope, too soon, that everything will be okay for me and tol.

PARTY CENTRAL (near ABS-CBN

I went to a concert – Independence Day Session of NU 107. With 80 bucks, I got to watch bands plus free SMB Pale Pilsen. Thanks to kuya Ryan who treated us. We were five who went there, three drunkards and two not. Kuya, ryan Silvestre, RD Almeda, and Pedong Bonamy, and Kaye. Mejo nakakainis nga lang kasi the bouncers were so strict at the gate. We spent half of our time outside kaya di naming nnapanuod ung other bands like chicosci. Outside palang, I saw same set of punks making tambay and sniffing doobie. I smelled a free one, hehe. tapos, nakapasok kami sa loob Parokya na ang tumutugtog. Thanks to some bouncers who prioritized the girls. There, I saw biboy and ocho of queso. Hmmm. What I enjoyed  (only), was Sandwich, the last to play. Ang bangag ni Raymund. May hinila shang isang girl from the pit tapos ung girl ung kumanta sa two trick pony. The girl got a kiss from raymund and diego haha. Ang astig nung girl, haha. Before going there, I already had a bad condition. it worsened the following day. Nagkatrangkaso nako at sobrang hirap talga plus I had my period. San din a lang aq nanuod

On agot javate

I cried and cried when I learned that agot died. Yun pla, it was a wrong news. Yes!! He’s alive and kicking!

FETE de la Musique. The yearly music Festival 150 plus bands

June 18 at El Pueblo
and The Podium. Do swing by (oh, and pray it doesn't
RAIN!!!)!:)
150 bands. 10 genres. 7 stages. One night.
MAIN STAGE (World/Reggae/Ska/Halo-halo at Nagomi El
Pueblo Parking)
4:30-5:00      Garlic
5:00-5:30      Butong Pakwan
5:30-6:00      Nityalila
6:00-6:30      Hemp Republic
6:30-7:00      Sing India
7:00-7:30      Yerbaguena
7:30-8:00      Kadangyan
8:15-8:45      Pre-opening: Hairy Dawgz/
Capoiera/Zips/
Pinikpikan percs and gongs/K-honistas
8:45-9:00      Opening: Cynthia Alexander
9:00-9:30      Cynthia Alexander
9:30-10:00      Tropical Depression
10:00-10:30      Spy
10:30-11:00      Jr. Kilat
11:00-11:30      Makiling Ensemble
11:30-12:00      Bayang Barrios
12:00-12:30      Loquy
12:30-1:00      Brass Munkeys
1:00-1:30      Reggae Mistress
1:30-2:00      Brownbeat All Stars
2:00-2:30      Indio I
2:30-3:00      Radioactive Sago Project
3:00-3:45      Pinikpikan
ROCK STAGE(Racks El Pueblo Parking)
3:15-3:30      Death by Tampon
3:30-3:45      Taggu nDios
3:45-4:00      Sique
4:00-4:15      Rugis
4:15-4:30      Plane Divides the Sky
4:30-4:45      13 Needles
4:45-5:00      Severo
5:00-5:15      Silent Sanctuary
5:15-5:30      Still
5:30-5:45      Brockas
5:45-6:00      Shards of Ice
6:00-6:15      Kinky Hooters
6:15-6:30      Join Da Club
6:30-6:45      Happy Meals
6:45-7:00      Cog
7:00-7:15      Boy Elroy
7:15-7:30      Dicta License
7:30-7:45      Zoom Zoom Lunacy
7:45-8:00      Ciudad
8:00-9:00      (All stages freeze for Opening Ritual,
drum
jam parade from Alt stage to Main)
9:00-9:20      Sandwich
9:20-9:40      Monkeyspank
9:40-10:00      Kwjan
10:00-10:20      Itchyworms
10:20-10:40      Cambio
10:40-10:50      Pinoy Blonde Segment
10:50-11:10      Imago
11:10-11:30      Kapatid
11:30-11:50      Twisted Halo
11:50-12:10      Sugarfree
12:20-12:40      Hellbender
12:40-1:00      DRT
1:00-1:20      Boldstar
1:20-1:40      Greyhoundz
1:50-2:10      Razorback
2:10-2:30      Chicosci
2:30-2:50      Nuncy Spungen
2:50-3:10      Mayonnaise
3:10-3:30      Typecast
3:30-3:50      Monsterbot
ALTERNATIVE STAGE (Podium Front Driveway)
3:15-3:30      Cueshe
3:30-3:45      Ang Bandang Shirley
3:45-4:00      Splitcide
4:00-4:15      Paramita
4:15-4:30      Mush Carnival
4:30-4:45      Milk N Money
4:45-5:00      Mozzie
5:00-5:15      Nancy Drool
5:15-5:30      Pinoy Stories
5:30-5:45      Sino Sikat?
5:45-6:00      Rock Steady
6:00-6:15      The Late Isabel
6:15-6:30      Bobby Parks Movement
6:30-6:45      Kinetic Daze
6:45-7:00      Dirty Kitchen
7:00-7:15      Olympic Smoker
7:15-7:30      Sundownmuse
7:30-7:45      Dale Ibay
7:45-8:00      Hiraya
8:00-9:00      (All stages freeze for Opening Ritual,
drum
jam parade from Alt stage to Main)
9:00-9:20      Mojofly
9:20-9:40      Sheila & the insects
9:40-10:00      Bridge
10:00-10:20      Rinka
10:20-10:40      Juan Pablo Dream
10:50-11:10      Hale
11:10-11:30      UpDharamaDown
11:30-11:50      Pedicab
11:50-12:10      Barbie’s Cradle
12:20-12:40      Pinwheel
12:40-1:00      Stonefree
1:00-1:20      Narda
1:20-1:40      Kitchie Nadal
1:50-2:10      Moonstar88
2:10-2:30      Spongecola
2:30-2:50      KikoMachine
2:50-3:10      Session Road
3:10-3:30      Salindiwa
BLUES STAGE (Sidebar)
9:00-9:30      Blue Jean Junkies
9:30-10:00      Huka
10:00-11:00      Bluesviminda
11:00-11:45      DC Aftershock
11:45-12:30      Naked Tongue
12:30-1:00      Taglay Silang
1:00-1:45      Mr. Crayon
1:45-2:15      Freeway Jam
2:15-2:50      Sammy Asuncion
3:00-3:45      The Jerks
Jazz Stage (San Mig Pub)
9:00-9:45      Bo Razon
9:45-10:15      Isha
10:15-10:45      Sound
10:45-11:15      Skarlet & Jazz Friends
11:15-11:45      Quail Quintet
11:45-12:30      Mother Earth
12:30-1:00      Wahijuara
1:00-1:45      Mishka Adams/ Blues Echoes
1:45-2:15      Subconcept
2:15-3:00      Jazz Volunteers
3:00-3:45      Johnny Alegre Affinity
Electronica (Pasto)
3:30-4:00      Makkina
4:00-4:40      Crystal Echo
4:40-5:20      Chox
5:20-6:00      Names are for Tombstones
6:00-6:40      Flipperbaby
6:40-7:20      Bagetsafonik
7:20-7:40      One Lone Clone
7:40-8:20      Daydream Cycle
9:00-9:40      Drip
9:40-10:20      Morse
10:20-11:00      Silverfilter
11:00-11:40      Wolfmann
11:40-12:20      Rubberinc
12:20-1:00      Neon8
1:00-1:40      Dayuhan
1:40-2:20      Trip M
2:20-3:00      Skies of Ember
Hiphop/R&B (Friends)
9:00-9:45      Out of Body Special
9:50-10:00      Kaliph8
10:00-10:10      Ginn and Razor Ray
10:10-10:15      Audible
10:15-10:25      Gloc9
10:25-10:40      Butta-Flava
10:45-11:00      Miscellaneous
11:00-11:20      Syke
11:20-11:40      Turbulence
11:45-12:00      Mike Swift
12:00-12:10      Jocelyn
12:10-12:30      Pikaso
12:30-12:45      Seven Shots
12:50-1:10      SVC

Hay naku mas nagenjoy pako magtext with my newst textmate that time (jersey # 29) kesa manuod. The rock stage started late punyetah talga. Tapos one band had an exhibitionist members. Amputah, two got naked while playing! Pero wala pa rin, boring pa rin ung gabi ko. Btw, Miggy of chiosci was the host of rock stage. Tengteng was also one of the staff of rock stage. Ateneo ata ang in-charge sa rock if I’m not mistaken. Tapos ung alterna, okay din sana pero I was feeling exhausted that din a talga aq nagenjoy. Inaantok nako. Sa alterna, I only got to watch mojofly, session road,moonstar, and kitchie. Pano naman kasi and lawak ng ortigas at mejo nakakapagod na lumipat-lipat ng stage between el pueblo at sa the raks.

On tol

Spent two weeks with my tol. Sarap. Enjoy. Saya. Kantahan, tambay sa sunken, sa circle, sa sikatuna, sa mcdo, sa Fairview, sa church. Basta, I enjoyed it. no need to add details. Hehe.